A couple weeks ago we found a box of dead kittens in the forest behind us. I came nearly undone but managed to keep busy and think of other things. I have avoided the road just because I remember the shock of looking down into that box. I was somewhat proud that I didn't lose it altogether and was able to carry on. There have been times when I am really inconsolable and unapproachable. Recently I've mustered up courage to take Choco back down that road on our morning and afternoon walks and that was where we were this morning.
Another kitten... run over. I am drifting into the dark, unreasonable mood that I can get into when something involved with an animal sets me off. I am angry at the stupidity of people who don't neuter their animals and I'm furious with the cruelty humans have to leave those creatures at the mercy of cars and crows and starvation.
The only positive thing I can think of is that I didn't have to bring back another kitten to take care of.
I hate myself for that thought too.
I think I'll stay offline until I can be more cheerful again.



