I now turn to a small mirror mounted next to the bathroom window when putting on make-up. There used to be only enough light from the vanity mirror over the sink and now more light comes in the window.
I go upstairs and I am brought to a standstill by the patch of light on the floor which has never been there before!
The sunroom really is a sunroom with all the light that streams in the windows.
The "front" yard even gets light where the sun wouldn't reach it after 12:00 noon.
All that is very good I suppose... it just takes a bit of getting used to.
A joy I am greeted by each morning is the scenery out my bedroom window now. With the forest gone I see the fields and the farther forests and even the mountain range in the distance if the weather is good.
So Tetsu and I have been trying to make the best of the situation...
Yesterday I was telling three friends about the disappearance of the forest. One friend knew ahead of time how upset I had been, it was the first for the two other friends to hear of it and they caught the end of the conversation about how I had been upset but they didn't know why.
"What happened? Have you been ill? Was there an accident? Is everyone ok?"
When I explained about the forest the one friend's reaction was,
"Oh! Don't scare me like that. A forest? That's not like someone is sick or in the hospital or something."
I get this quite a lot. Most people who walk by the land where the forest used to be say to me,
"You must be so happy to get all that light now!"
The third friend in our conversation yesterday had just looked at the pictures of my Michigan trip and the visit to my grandfather's summer home with it surrounded by forest and said,
"I can understand just looking at your pictures your special love of nature and forests and while most of us wouldn't mind the loss I think from childhood you were wired to love trees..."
I was grateful for those words of understanding.
In the meantime we hear rumors of more upcoming forest cutting and this sets me off again.
A neighbor says, "yeah, I heard that the landowner for the forest in FRONT of your house and the whole area still left behind you is considering cutting down that acreage too."
DO NOT TELL ME THESE THINGS!!! I AM TRYING TO ADJUST MYSELF TO WHAT IS LEFT AND I DON'T WANT TO HEAR THAT THINGS ARE GOING TO CHANGE SOME MORE!!!
Tetsu and I seriously talk about moving... Would there be anywhere else more in the countryside that we could adjust to? But we do like our house... just not the changes to the forest.
Should we think about a permanent retirement home if we could even find one to our liking (and be able to afford)? We are 64 and 66. How many years left do we have to enjoy our own home anyway? We were hoping to spend at least another 10 years here but maybe this is the time to move on...
Tetsu has always wanted to move back to Northern Japan where he grew up and where we met. Should we think about a move there? But it is SO cold in Northern Japan! I don't think I am up to icy, long winters and there are actually very few people we still know in that area. Our children have no connections with the north... Everyone's memories are here...
A sight I've never seen before... the back of my house!
So... stay here and make the best of it? If the rest of the forests are cut down then... erect a fence so that I can't see out? Go ahead and enjoy the sun, plant a few trees of my own even if they will take more than 10 years to reach full height, build a sundeck for backyard sunning?
In my mind it all depends... It depends on what the landowners' next move is going to be.
